I just want to take this opportunity to wish everyone a very Happy Easter weekend. I'm not sure what everyone is going to be up to this weekend, but I am going to be spending it doing homework. It sucks, but what can you do? If anyone gets any chocolate, could they share some? Oh, I'm just kidding. But seriously though, have a wonderful weekend!

Current Location: Windsor, ON
Current Mood: busy

Again, it's been a while since I wrote an entry talking about things that have been going on in my life, so I guess here's a perfect opportunity.

Since my last update there have been a few things going on. Usually with me, not a whole lot happens, but lately there have been a few things.

Recently, I applied to two jobs here in Windsor. One was to work at a radio station here called 89X (which is a rock station) and the other is one that's client-based and I would be able to DJ different weddings and other gigs of that sort. I got an email yesterday from the radio station saying that they are looking for people with a minimum of five years experience, so that one is out. The second one I haven't heard back yet, but I did send in my resume and a number of demos for him to listen to. Wish me luck on that!

Since I've been here in Windsor I've been doing a lot of walking and biking on the path along the Detroit river. It's a nice hike and a great ride. It's giving me an opportunity to get out and see the scenery and get my exercise at the same time. I still need to buy an air pump for my tires because they're starting to get soft. I've taken a number of pictures too of the buildings across the river, some boats that have passed by and some of the sculptures that are located along the river (on our side of the border).

On to the next topic of discussion in my little rant about life and that would be Stephannie's visit here and my visit to Ottawa to see her and my old roommate. On her birthday, August 11, Steph came to visit me here in Windsor for a few days before having to go back home to move to Ottawa. We had a good time touring around Windsor, taking walks along the Detroit River and just hanging out here in the apartment. I was recently in Ottawa and returned late last night (early this morning) after spending almost two weeks there. I came up to Ottawa to visit her while she was alone because Elaine (my old roommate) had gone home for a doctor's visit and found out she was pregnant after six months of not knowing. So I spent a few days with her and within a few days Elaine had come back and we all hung out together. I had a great time going different places, spending time with them and their dogs, and touring around the city that I miss quite a bit. It's been a while since my relationship with Chrissi, and slowly I'm moving on now and I am actually with Steph now. We were together briefly in high school. Our relationship was the only one that hasn't ended on a bad note. Everyone else who I have been with has ended on not-so-good terms. Of course, when a relationship ends usually it's not exactly on "good terms" unless of course you are taking a "break" and just need some time to figure things out, etc. Well, I think that's what happened with Steph and I. We dated when I was in my last year of high school, and ever since then a few friends have said that her and I would eventually get back together. I guess they were right weren't they? This relationship we are going to take nice and slow and continue from where we left off, which wasn't much due to some circumstances at the school, restrictions if you will, which caused the relationship strain. However, I'm positive that this time things will work out better and we'll see what the future has in store.

As of right now, I'm not sure what is going to be happening with me this month except for the fact that my friend Marc is coming down to visit and do some things while he's here. We're planning to make a day trip to Detroit so he can pick up a few things and also tour around. Other than that, I don't have any major plans. If anything comes up, I'll play the cards as they fall.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Blessid Union Of Souls - Rest Of My Life

I just wanted to take this opportunity to wish all of you a very Merry Christmas. I hope you have a wonderful day filled with happiness, love and joy.

Current Location: Ariss
Current Mood: content

I haven't updated this in a while but nothing really significant has changed since the last time I wrote... however, now I have some things to write about.

Let me start off by saying that I'm feeling a lot of pressure and stress right now from a number of things, the biggest being college. The assignments just keep coming even though the year is coming to an end. I am in six classes, which almost all contain homework right up until the very last day of class. At this very moment, I think I'm in the process of completing five assignments, three of which are major projects. I think that the workload of this class was not properly evaluated. We are getting stacked with so much work and not enough time to complete it. I've been stressed out about this for a while now and it's just getting worse, not better. I think I'm going to fail my Graphic Layout class because that's the one I'm struggling with the most and that's one of the classes that I'm falling behind in because of the large workload.

Next, I'm worried about my roommate. She went to Toronto to presumably visit her boyfriend and called me the night she was supposed to come back telling me that she wouldn't be back for a while. I've spoken with her twice since then and that was almost three weeks ago. I'm not sure when she'll be home or why she hasn't returned yet... all I know is that I'm starting to get worried, and not just that, but lonely without having a roommate... reminds me of August when I was alone until she arrived close to the end of August, a week and half before classes began.

On to a happier note, my love is coming to visit me tomorrow and I can't wait. I'm ecstatic about it. I can't wait to hold her, kiss her and just be with her. It's been too long since we've been together and it kills me every day that we're apart. I can't wait until the day when we are able to be with each other for good, not worrying about saying goodbye. The day when we can finally do everything together and start our lives together. I dream about it every single night before I go to sleep, after our nightly chat before bed. This is something I have been waiting for my whole life and soon enough it will come true. But... of course with happiness always comes upset and that is that it's way too long to wait. I can't describe in words how much I'm hurting to be in her arms and be together. Even tomorrow won't come soon enough. I will update again after she leaves which will also kill me, us as a matter of fact, because I know that it won't just be me that's upset.

I can't think of anything else at the moment to write about, except for little things like my broadcast on The Q Online back on the 18th when I did the 2-year birthday show. I'm going home on December 6th to celebrate our family's annual Christmas party, which by the way, I go home on my birthday! I can't wait for that either. I'll be turning 22 and having a small party with a friend friends here in Ottawa.

That's all for now. I should get back to my work because I'm sitting in class right now in the middle of a work period. Oh, I almost forgot... Happy Thanksgiving to all in the U.S., and anywhere else that celebrates Thanksgiving in November.

Current Location: Ottawa
Current Mood: tired

I haven't posted an entry like this yet, so I felt like I should do so now. My best memory of Krystle would have to be our drama production of Grease. There are so many other memories, too many to list. Krystle was a wonderful person with so many amazing qualities and a great personality. She was a wonderful friend and I will never forget her. She will always be in my heart and I'm glad she's in a better place now, not suffering. Rest in peace.

Current Location: Brantford
Current Mood: bored

Just a quick post to let everyone know that I'm at home and on my way with my parents to Brantford to visit family friends. The weather is grey, wet and miserable. Other than that, there's nothing new going on with me. Sorry if you found this entry boring,

Current Mood: blah

I'm posting this entry as I sit on the bus heading home to Guelph. I'm listening to music, but it's still boring, so I thought I would write and say a quick hello to everyone reading this. I'm going home this weekend so I can finish cleaning up the apartment and announce at our final horse show of the season. Other than that, nothing much happening this weekend. Take care everyone.

Current Location: Toronto
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Flo Rida - Low

I'm writing this entry just to say that I'm feeling quite lonely here alone at my apartment. My roommate is not here and won't be for a couple weeks and I'm feeling alone. I'm not used to living in an apartment, nor am I used to be alone like this... I have friends here in Ottawa and I wish I could see them more often. Emily is staying here for a month cat-sitting, but lives fairly far from here and I don't know the bus route and costs about $40 to travel there by taxi. Victoria has come to visit once but tomorrow will be going home until the end of August. Leah has been stressed out lately but said she would try and come next week sometime, so I hope I can see her. Other that, I don't have many friends here, but hope to make more. Lately, I've just been feeling depressed because of the fact that I'm alone, or feel that way, in all senses right now. I'm bored and find myself even getting bored by music... that right there shows there's something wrong. Right now I guess I will try and live day by day and see how that goes. I should be in bed but can't sleep. I'm going home this weekend, so I will be again surrounded by my parents... so we'll see how that goes. Good night everyone.

Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: Blue - You Make Me Wanna

This is a quick post to let everyone know that I made it to Ottawa on Saturday. My parents stayed overnight and helped me unpack a few things. On Sunday, we went to get groceries and a few last things before they left shortly after lunch time. I am now here in the apartment for a few weeks without my roommate. It feels so different living in an apartment as I have never had to live in one before and also because I'm alone and will be for a few weeks. I still have lots of unpacking to do, so that should keep me busy for a while anyway.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Moffatts - Miss You Like Crazy

I don't know what to do anymore... all I know is I want out of this house, AND RIGHT NOW! Tonight, again I got yelled at over something that I have mentioned in a previous entry. This is regarding the eating situation at home. Maybe I should just not eat anymore... maybe that would solve the whole problem. I tried again to explain that maybe too much was being made and my mother completely flipped out by not only yelling at me about it, pounding the table, but... well she hit me again. I don't know what else to do. I guess all I can do is say... there's only a few weeks left at this house, then I can get away from her and not have to worry about it again. This happens so often, and I am reduced to tears each time. And what happens with my brother... absolutely nothing. Pardon my language here... but why the fuck can't they deal with him too? Why can't my mother yell at him for eating too much? I don't eat that much and when I say I don't want too much... I get all this god damn flak! Why is everything dumped on me? Why am I her emotional punching bag... and in this case, physically too... I can't take it anymore... I WANT AN END AND I WANT IT NOW!

Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Michael W. Smith - Friends